i like now for now. please dont ruin it.

sometimes as human beings, we try to block out the inevitable. and here i am, trying to be strong and yet wanting to chid myself for thinking way too much into the future. (no i'm not talking about the alvl results being release on friday because its a whole different stupid story).

now i feel that as if i'm painting myself a life on this stupid blog because i have to be careful to not reveal too much thats really happening now in fear that it might actually ignite an unnecessary event that i would have otherwise, preferred to completely steer clear off. haha. what the hell. what a wimp.

recently i felt compliant to do certain stuff. and after that feeling passes, i wonder why. every freaking time. now i've come to the point (for that situation) whereby i dont care if everything goes away or turns to hell because to me its better if there are no bloody strings attached! ha i'm actually pretty serious.

and i dont comprehend how one can be so positive about something when actually they arent even close to jackpot. at least carry some doubt be it externally or internally, right not. what happen to open-mindedness for everything else besides the topic on sexuality?

so maybe its the cranky period for me because of the release of results. or maybe its just a cancer thing.

ha i know tmr will be a better day.

sunday morning

hongkong cafe has really bad service. i dont mean all of their branches cos i've only been to the one at kovan. like seriously! omg, go for classes on customer service.

anyway, i had POC marathon today. am gonna start on the harry potter one soon. ha!

okay bye i have better things to busy myself with already.

its no more C.

somehow or rather, i kinda like the lunar new year. (notice how it isnt referred to as Chinese New Year anymore). finally, something worth getting accustomed to.

i noticed that as one grows older, the amount of red packets we receive automatically decreases, somehow drastically. its like the adults just walk right past us, teenagers. so its either we look like one of them big people, or they are just (stingy) people who only distributes the angbaos to the young boys and girls.

kinda of sad.

but the food... omg the food is fantabulous. its like fat camp all over again.

no, i'm serious.

but the fun came in truckloads.







see ! haha.

but i doubt you'll understand.

good day all.

baggage

why do people pretend to be like other people, all the time?

its because their lives stink, 24/7. the pity-pretend.

anyway, i took half day off from work because my company is practically empty (except for the few who have very strong willpower to not go with the norm).

i'm gonna go out (anywhere for that matter) with my mum and do what i would be doing during days like these. haha. shiokness.

but its the CNY crowd which turns me off. its not because they come in lorries, its because they are very very ill-mannered.

perhaps all thought that their respective ancestors own the bloody grounds. or maybe it didnt occur to them all that their fat asses were blocking the whole passage way. eg. NTUC people.

and they are bloody deaf too!

God forbid.

i hope the aircon man does his repairs quick. i have no time to waste.

have a good one.

rule no. 1

things don't last forever.

sometimes i feel that i can (and will) go against the world on that.

goodbye, you.

the pain and regret inflicted surpassed all the trials and tribulations that i've ever witnessed so far.

thank you for letting me know that at least i still have the opportunity to treasure. i feel closer to you even more than i've ever expected it.

but sometimes it only hits me when its too late.

goodbye, you.

so now i need my holiday. and i am actually developing a liking for work. how queer.

i rather things remain the way it is now, minus the stomach trouble.

and its only then that i'll go back to being the happy girl.

in response to my worst case scenario, you know, at least i've the balls to try.

big L

i'm sitting on the fence.

the reason why sometimes i think my life now isnt fun because i dont have the same amt of free time i had like a month ago.

but the reason why it isnt so bad is because i needed things to go the way it has been now.

anyway i cant stand drastically needy people who are so self-absorbed. people who craves for attention using the wrong mechanism. people who plays the cards of pity and sympathy.

please see the bigger picture.

other people dont shit care.

but then to those who displays the same amt of sob story and do not add that pinch of "please care cos i'm pathetic" punch, kudos to you because this entry doesnt have any inkling to what you have been doing.

this is to the people who thinks the world can go as big as themselves only.

haha. sick asses.